Im not a fucking child!!!

Ok so i have this one friend who is really starting to get on my nerves. Every time i do something that she thinks is wrong she is immediately on my case and starts talking down to me as if I'm fucking five years old!! And people have had the nerve to get up me for it yet its as if no one else sees her do it but me!! She is really pushing me to a point where I'm going to snap at her. But that will only make me the bad guy cause i know she will cry as soon as i do. Talk about stuck between a rock and a hard place..... I have two options but I'm not sure how that is gonna go down with either one that i pick. Either way shit is gonna start. 

Why am i such a fuck up

Ok now in my life i have a habit of fucking everything important to me. But now i have gone and done it. I have made the biggest fuck up yet. I have let the girl i love down. To the point where i don't think she wants to be together anymore. I have a habit of talking down to people and being rude. The only problem is that I don't know that I'm doing it :( and to make it worse I come of as clingy. She is the first thing in my life that makes me truly happy. I just want to be with her as much as possible. I act like such a child because i don't want to grow up. But now its wrecking the one thing i care most about. I have to start being me now. Not a child but me. Hopefully i can make things right before it ruins everything

Change of direction

The last few days have been amazing!!! Friday I kissed the girl of dreams, Fi, and now I feel on top of the world knowing that we are together. The best feeling is waking up to see her in my arms :) im taking her to the movies tonight and when i told her what her birthday present was it made her smile so much. She cant wait til it gets here. She has shave for a cure tomorrow and then her party on the weekend. Not sure how i feel about a male stripper giving her a lap dance but ill see what happens. I just hope that this feeling never ends :)

For a change

For once I would like to have luck with love. Every time I find the type of girl I would love to date, I'm stuck in the friend zone cause for one reason or another I'll never be able to date that girl. They are either a brothers girlfriend or ex, or a friend I have known for ages. Either way I'm stuck. I could never dog my bros by dating their exes but sometimes I just wish that I could find a girl like them. And its hard dating a friend cause it could wreck everything. I have no luck with girls in anyway elsewhere either. Im not the guy that got invited to party's so I have a hard time meeting girls. Hell I have never actually been to a proper party. So each time I find a girl I could date that I connect with on some many levels Im stuck in the friend zone. I just wish I could finally catch a break. I really do.

Shot through the heart

Relationships and love has always avoided me. And when its found me its never mutual. They always say you will find that someone. But its hard when you think its one of your friends.

I just want to find that someone. And soon. After a while waiting and being patient is the hardest thing to do. I keep hoping that ill find them soon. Im willing to try anything. But it would be easier if i wasn't in love with a friend :/

Love. A bitch. A luxury. Yet something we cant imagine living without. And another part of my scar on the arm

I got a job :P

I always wondered what I would do for a career. Would I be an electrician?Archaeologist? Engineer? I didn't really know until I got an automotive technicians apprenticeship. I finally have a future ahead of me. But how will it unfold? That's what I want to know.

I missed.

One of the events that makes my scar on the arm literally put a scar on me.

When I was ten I would often go to my grandparents house. One day I got so bored I decided to make something.

Unfortunately for me that was a challenge in itself. I firstly had no idea what to make. But eventually I decided to make a mini wooden raft out of sticks.

I got everything I needed but my only problem was that the sticks for my rad weren't the same size. So I decided to fix the problem.

To do this I went into the shed to cut the sticks. What happened next is a bit that confuses me till this day.

To cut the sticks I decided to grab the hatchet. And there is the dumbest thing I could have ever done. I lined up the sticks and swung the hatchet.

My aim is what screwed me over. When I looked down the hatchet was sticking out of my thumb.

Looking at my thumb I stood there for a full 2 minutes. As any ten year old would do the first thing out of my mouth was a scream. Not my proudest moment.

I didn't have to go to hospital. It was bandaged up. But because of my stupidity I now have a scar 1 and a half centimeters long in my left thumb.

Talk about stupid.